Me and my friends on a night out <3 Can you guess which are mine? :P haha
God, I'm sucha shite blogger guys! sorry again!Well, I've been doing...a mix of different things. I went out with a wonderful GORGEOUS guys for about a month and then we had to end it because he's medical student and barely has time to get all of his work done, let alone see me, so, we broke on the BEST of terms so I'm ok about that. College is OVERRRRRRRRRR til January yeoooo!
I need to ask, what does everyone do on Christmas day?
Last Christmas I was about 2 weeks into recovery and was like forced to eat the traditional Christmas dinner with my family, but this year I have a choice and I'm finding it unbelievably difficult to choose. I haven't eaten with my family in MONTHS; I've improved soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much in some ways and have gone further downhill in others (for e.g. I don't eat with my family at all, I eat all my house-meals by myself). But, seeing as it's Christmas I feel obliged/pressured into eating the traditional meal with all the foods I haven't eaten in literally a year (meat, potatoes etc.) which someone else has prepared (SCARY AS FECK) or, I just eat my normal meal plan, in my room while they're all at the big table eating theirs. Doesn't that sound awful? Like I don't even want to be with them?
Please, gimme some advice guys, I have to decide so I can talk it through with my therapist tomorrow, cus we'll be taking a 'tester' break over Christmas, to see how I cope hahaha.
Sorry this isn't a very good post, I'd just like some advice if anyone's willing to give some!
Thank you!!
Rose xoxo
Hi
ReplyDeleteI know you would have alrady seen your therapy by now, but over Christmas I had the exact saem problem. All my life people have come to our house for Christmas day, meaning that I could specifically tell my mum what I wanted on my plate. But this year we went to my aunt's where everything was prepared already.
I could see things that were cooked with a stupid amount of butter in them, but I just let it wash over me. It was christmas and for some reason all the worried thoughts I had up to that day went completely when we sat down to eat. Yes, admittidly I did request for less of a few things (the mash) but seeing everyone tucking in just made me see that these peeople didn't care and neither should I.
What I was more worried about was that when I eat a lot, I eat a lot - ie I think "what the hell, I've already eaten loads today, might as well keep going" - and I start a massive crazy binge. To stop this, I kept myself busy all day adn away from the food (the nintedo wii did help!)
I know this may not have helped much, but hopefully you had a lovely Christmas and ate your Christmas dinner with everyone.
x